Often recently I’ve found myself experiencing moments of unexplained happiness.
They don’t seem to have much to do with my life circumstances in any obvious way.
It’s just every now and again I feel so glad to be alive, and to be me. Riding up to my apartment in the lift this evening I suddenly just felt like dancing.
It’s a bit like those moments when you’re in the early stages of falling in love and you get those intense flashes of feeling great about yourself and where you are in your life.
Except I’m not in love. And life is certainly no bed of roses at present – full of challenges.
But perhaps that’s why I have these flashes of feeling good about myself – when I feel I’ve dealt well with a challenge, had a productive day, turned a rock into a rose.
I think it’s also got a lot to do with resting comfortably in a sense of who I am, and the value of the person I am. The deep confidence that I won from the teeth of a painful rejection. It’s definitely part of me now, but I tend to forget it quite easily, so I’ve been consciously trying to strengthen that feeling, sometimes doing something close to a meditation practice, othertimes just trying to remember that feeling when things aren’t going well. It seems to be bearing fruit.
I sincerely wish that you, much-appreciated reader, may also experience sunbursts of inexplicable happiness in your life.