In the supermarket
I turn to pick up some tomatoes
and find my feet
pivoting in a dance step.
Later on, choosing a bag of sugar, I notice
they’re doing it again – one foot
skimming the outline of the other,
And I realise that, this weekend
I have danced further than I have walked
and my feet are enjoying
Indeed my feet feel alive -
tingling softly with a happiness
that seems to have very little to do
with what my mind is thinking. So
wherever I go, I arrive on a cushion
(like a hovercraft on air)
which makes it hard to be sad, or daunted.
A strange feeling -
to walk around on happy feet
and feel cheerfulness spread up my body
as if every tiny cell is dancing
to some unheard music.
Often recently I’ve found myself experiencing moments of unexplained happiness.
They don’t seem to have much to do with my life circumstances in any obvious way.
It’s just every now and again I feel so glad to be alive, and to be me. Riding up to my apartment in the lift this evening I suddenly just felt like dancing.
It’s a bit like those moments when you’re in the early stages of falling in love and you get those intense flashes of feeling great about yourself and where you are in your life.
Except I’m not in love. And life is certainly no bed of roses at present – full of challenges.
But perhaps that’s why I have these flashes of feeling good about myself – when I feel I’ve dealt well with a challenge, had a productive day, turned a rock into a rose.
I think it’s also got a lot to do with resting comfortably in a sense of who I am, and the value of the person I am. The deep confidence that I won from the teeth of a painful rejection. It’s definitely part of me now, but I tend to forget it quite easily, so I’ve been consciously trying to strengthen that feeling, sometimes doing something close to a meditation practice, othertimes just trying to remember that feeling when things aren’t going well. It seems to be bearing fruit.
I sincerely wish that you, much-appreciated reader, may also experience sunbursts of inexplicable happiness in your life.
Couldn’t resist posting this image of Calvin and Hobbes – I just love how it captures the sheer bliss of being utterly immersed in music and dance! Being able to be this spontaneous and unselfconscious is such a gift…
Click here to see the whole cartoon and more like it at gocomics.com